Valdez Landscape

May 17, 2016



Noticing my breathing

March 18, 2009



These days when someone talks about noticing breathing it sounds so cliche’.  Doesn’t everyone talk about breathing?  The funny things is does anyone truly breathe beyond what it takes to survive?  Our lungs have a large capacity.  Most people only use the top third of their lungs.  Apparently the message the body receives from such shallow breathing is that it is in a state of panic.  Fight or Flight.  

Today was a completely chaotic morning at work.  So many things were happening at once and I had to use the toilet and hadn’t eaten or drank enough water.  It was very difficult to stay focused and I felt like I was moving through molasses.   At some point I remembered to take a deep breath and I felt instantly better.  My lungs were hungry for air, like I couldn’t get enough it was so delicious.

Some friends of mine have been talking to me about  Human Design.  It sounds fascinating.  Today my chart tells me I am having a emotional low and a physical critical.  Maybe that is why the day seemed so exhausting.  Usually I don’t look at my chart until the time has already passed because I don’t want it to influence how I feel about my day.

This evening I took a wonderful walk through the forest with Truper and Blanca.  Osa has a boyfriend and doesn’t always come on our walks.  The woods smell so fresh with moisture and springtime.  The birds were chirping and the ground was soft.  It was gorgeous!  I love having a forest right outside my door.  




Charismatic Vampires

March 15, 2009






Recently I read the Twilight series by Stephenie Meyer.  Is anyone else as obsessed with it as I am?  The story is somehow so sweet and innocent.  It is romantic and intimate and also funny.  Never have a I read about such charismatic vampires.

I love the idea of having a passionate love relationship for life.  That type of intimacy is alive and well in this series.  Most of the vampires and other mythical characters have life mates or else believe it is possible.  It is an uplifting thought in this age of divorce and blame.  Rather then flitting from partner to partner they seem intrigued and delighted with who they are with and look forward to deepening their understanding of one another.

On a different subject.  My chickens seem to be eating their own eggs.  They are cannibals!  A local chicken expert told me I have to get rid of the egg eaters immediately.  Either eat them or find them a new home.  Most likely 5 of them would have to go.  

I was trying to wrap my head around killing and eating them.  I am not a vegetarian so it seems normal that I should kill my own food.  Still, how does one kill a chicken exactly?  I would not want the chicken to be frightened, but almost anything scares them.  I have learned how to move very slowly while in the coop.  

To make it easier I reminded myself that I buy them expensive, organic food and then also have to buy pricey, natural eggs.  Luckily my boyfriend wasn’t so attached to the “it has to be one or the other” problem solving and came up with building them some new nesting boxes.  They are situated higher off the ground so the chickens can’t lean in and peck their eggs.  Also, they are more confined so they don’t have room to peck if they are in the box.  Now we are getting 5-8 eggs a day!  Yippeee!  Fresh eggs are the best!

This evening I took a walk up the mountain, through the woods with my dogs Osa and Truper.  My little white cat, Blanca, accompanied us.  She looks particularly small in the forest.  Most of the snow is melted even though it snowed all last night and yesterday.  

While crossing a snowy patch I inhaled the strong, wild scent of a wet animal.  I looked around because the odor was so strong it smelled like the animal could be close.  Seeing only trees I continued on my way.  After a short way the reek was still with me and it seemed to be getting stronger.  Then Osa ran up to me, her black fur covered in green slime.  The stench so strong I am wondering if she rolled in a liquefied animal covered in diarrhea.  She looked very pleased with herself.  

Luckily it is snowing again.  Maybe her coat will get a little cleaner.  Even so, I will only pet the top of her head for the next few weeks.